So, I was inspired to write by another guy too. This one I'm not completely over. I think I open myself up too much. Oh, well. It can lead to some interesting insights.


Have you ever had that feeling where reality ceased to exist. Not your 'reality', but REALITY. You felt like a hollow projection. That's how I feel today. So completely void. So light. Everything is moving slightly slower. I look right through people. How they mock me! I carry their food to the table. They smile politely then turn back to their conversations. Laughing emphatically at some witticism. The real joke is on them. I want to shout "I know your secret!!" Laugh all you want. I see right through your ego. I know you're as hollow as me. You just don't know it...yet.

As I turn my back to the table I tread lightly. Every step so carefully placed. There is but one consequence. I must tread lightly. One wrong step and that's it. I would wilt away. Melt out of this world not knowing where I may end up. Without the illusion I dissolve back into the abyss, ceasing to exist in even a fake "reality".

My phone is ringing. I leave the floor and retreat to a bathroom stall. Just a text message. I begin to read initially with some bitter amusement. I can feel my fingers go numb. My heart drops deeper in my chest. Something is wrong... I'm no longer in control.... "Reality" has taken over. There are suddenly more consequences. I thought if I could challenge reality, then I could change his. I read it again and again... With every word I am no longer the light, hollow projection. I am weighed down, implicated by "reality".